Charlie, Hi my love...
Ok so I know you'd be totally pissed at me right now because you'd so hate that I posted this photo but I couldn't help it. It is so the "classic you" down to the look and the best part of the whole thing is that Helen caught you in your room, yeah blame her b/c she took this pic..
I never ever went in your room to take any photos of you b/c I knew that was your space and as much as you hated me taking any photos of you, this would've been a 'Mom your so deleting that' so I totally respected your SPACE and I'm glad that your sister didn't.. jejeje
I miss you so much and every time I go into your room and I smell your scent my heart sinks and I feel a knot in the pit of my stomach because the night you left us it was in your room and it just makes me sick to know that but then again happy because we got to say goodnight and our I love you's and it was like you were off to bed but not at all what happened! I sit in there with my hand clutched over my mouth and I try to scream but all I get our these huge fat tears falling down my face and a huge knot in my throat and then I feel an overwhelming feeling of despair, gosh it's just a horrible feeling but your room is the place I can go to and just close the door and not have to worry about the other kids looking at me and asking me if I'm sad and crying because of you my Beautiful Charlie. It's so hard answering all these questions when I don't want to be bothered I just want to be left alone with my memories with my feelings all to myself on this path of grief....
Ok so I know you'd be totally pissed at me right now because you'd so hate that I posted this photo but I couldn't help it. It is so the "classic you" down to the look and the best part of the whole thing is that Helen caught you in your room, yeah blame her b/c she took this pic..
I never ever went in your room to take any photos of you b/c I knew that was your space and as much as you hated me taking any photos of you, this would've been a 'Mom your so deleting that' so I totally respected your SPACE and I'm glad that your sister didn't.. jejeje
I miss you so much and every time I go into your room and I smell your scent my heart sinks and I feel a knot in the pit of my stomach because the night you left us it was in your room and it just makes me sick to know that but then again happy because we got to say goodnight and our I love you's and it was like you were off to bed but not at all what happened! I sit in there with my hand clutched over my mouth and I try to scream but all I get our these huge fat tears falling down my face and a huge knot in my throat and then I feel an overwhelming feeling of despair, gosh it's just a horrible feeling but your room is the place I can go to and just close the door and not have to worry about the other kids looking at me and asking me if I'm sad and crying because of you my Beautiful Charlie. It's so hard answering all these questions when I don't want to be bothered I just want to be left alone with my memories with my feelings all to myself on this path of grief....
Dear Mary,
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. I will be praying for you and your family.
Debra